Thursday, October 6, 2011

Letting Go

This one is for you my dear friend

Have you ever wondered what happens to some relationships? Have you ever wondered why relationships twist, change, evolve and confound? Is it because change is inevitable? Is it because change is always for the better? Is it because people grow tired of sameness? Can't some feelings stay the same? Can't some relationships withstand the test of time and distance?

It seems like just a few hundred miles that separates people. And with today's electronic connectivity and ease of air travel, a few hundred miles translates to a couple of hours and a few hundred dollars. But the distance can still seem a world apart , especially since we have been so extremely close to each other. With the teary eyed goodbyes came promises to call everyday, countless whispered miss you's,  assurances to maintain the same bond, and plans to meet.

But I know for a certainty that the time will come to pass when life overwhelms people like it so often does. The sands of time will slither through your hands to be lost forever as new experiences, friends and events slowly fill your life and spread through your time like ink on blotting paper. I know that you will get caught up and swept away with everything happening in front of your eyes that you will seldom have the chance to reflect upon things happening yonder. And before we know it, the calls will start slowing down, the endless hours of gossip and mundanities will dwindle to minutes.  Vivid memories of all the times of togetherness will fade into fond remembrances that seems like vague dreams of a far-off place and time. And I know that sometimes the best I can do is let go.

And so the time will come when I will feel hurt because I know that I might still be clinging to the past. My greatest fear is that I would start to hold our bond, our friendship  and camaraderie so close that it would actually start getting out of my hands. I know people make new friendships all the time but I need to be reminded often that the true old ones are never forgotten but always cherished and celebrated. Despite that, I feel an infinite sadness that threatens to crush my soul and make me yearn for the olden times.True, you might no longer have time for me or no longer call as often but that doesn't necessarily mean that you do not care for me or love me the same way you used to. I realize that we have very different lives now and that we can no longer exist in the same bubble together cause sooner or later every bubble pops.

That time is around the corner. And so, I just want you to know, how lucky I am to have known you for this short time. And before it's too late, I want you to know that you were the best thing that happened to me in this strange, faraway land, and that, despite the numerous misunderstandings, fights and problems that we have been through, I would never, ever regret one moment of our friendship. I am sorry for the times I have been a lousy friend, for the times I have hurt you even though I never meant to, and for the times that I've let you down. Goodbye my friend. Wherever you go, whatever you do, I will always wish that you stay happy and live life to the fullest.